Sometimes we are in situations that never leave us alone and sometimes we are so fucking lonely that nobody howmuchever we are surrounded can fill up that loneliness. Sometimes people come and go and we hardly feel the pinch and sometimes people go away and they never leave us, they are all around us. Sometimes you want some people to leave and they don’t, sometimes you don’t want some to leave and they do, only not to know when you would meet them again and then the waiting period starts. All the emotions are so stronger that even when they go away the bloody mind plays a trick by surrounding those very people in each and everything you do, say or feel, making it all the more heavier and unbearable and you want that waiting period to finish at the very moment you are living. Even though they have gone they are present and you can feel them there with you, making other people wonder as to “Lost”. Even sometimes when you are speaking to that someone you are lost with words, sometimes the feelings are so overwhelming that you want to say something and you blurt out something else.
Slowly you tend to get involved with all the things around you but deep inside you are aware that it’s not changed sometimes it feels like no its gone but the next moment it just comes back. I don’t know what to do in such situations. At the very moment of realisation all we are able to say is “FUCK” or “SHIT”! I don’t know if there are any better or should I say polished words to put here. It’s not about the words, it’s about the aggression, the wrong timing or the right, it’s the helplessness and a lot of other things that we feel at that moment and continue to feel. These are the situations of which you have to endure.
Sometimes people whom you never wanted to leave they go away never leaving you alone and once you accept that they have left they come back with a bang and the bang is so fucking hard and in your face that you don’t know how to deal with it all you can say is “FUCK” or “SHIT”!
These are all different kinds of situations which are in most cases disastrous. I don’t want to elaborate or extrapolate on anything right now but I would want you to imagine these situations and when you imagine, I am sure it would turn so complicated and confused and you would say “This whole thing is so complicated confused or may be it doesn’t make sense” . May be I don’t want to make sense, may be whatever I have written is complicated and confused, may be its like yeah! That is the reason why I wrote this blog twice and deleted it alltogether. This is the third time and still I dont know how complicated or how much sense it makes...but whatever it is I would like you to know that I am in all this situations right now all at once....
